My own life coach has given me the assignment of writing everyday about cultivating trust. Usually we tend to associate trust issues with a lack of trust in others. But currently I am having difficulty trusting in the universe. My dad was recently diagnosed with stage 4 cancer, I just resigned from my job, I'm getting married in 4 days and sometimes my chest actually hurts with a panic of not knowing what the future holds. I know I need to let go of trying to figure everything out and make sense of it. I'm not saying there isn't meaning to this, because I believe at some level there is. But I'm not currently at that level and trying to piece it all together is just making me miserable. I want to be ok with not knowing. Even be able to find some joy and peace in it. I feel that that is my task right now. To sit, to be present, to wait.
Now all you can do is wait. It must be hard for you, but there is a right time for everything. Like the ebb and flow of tides. No one can do anything to change them. When it is time to wait, you must wait.
